Journal Quote Two

"Lets pretend its my first time
So you can really blow my mind
Lets pretend we never
A good excuse to play forget
Let pretend you never lied
So I can give it up all night
Swallow my pride, and learn to forgive
When Im looking love I pretend
Its you
A love that never ends
I pretend its you
That Im in love with"

     -Tinashe "Pretend"

Seems no matter in person or on camera, Im just an object to be desired. I date with little hope of finding  that forever that movies & fairy tales are filled with....but that last one sparked something inside my soul. Something that Ive found nowhere else so I play pretend like the days and long hours I spent waiting for them to have time for me didn't bother me. Yet I still loss.
You asked me daringly to say I love you....but never noticed my lack of hesitation to repeat those words.